Grow Up Well (2)

“Back then you really liked sweets,” Xie Mingshen said that he looked at the refreshments in front of Lin Yuhe before asking further, “Don’t you like it too much now? I don’t think you have moved much with these desserts.”

Lin Yuhe tightened his fingers and paused for a moment before speaking.

“Well, tastes change when you grow up.”

“Is that so?” Xie Mingshen said, “I remember you carried candy with you when you were young, and Yunyao also said that the sweeter it is, the more you like it, and you always add sugar to your porridge.”

“Everyone said that they have never seen a child who likes sweets so much. I thought you would like it now, so I specially prepared these.”

Lin Yuhe pursed his lips. “Thank you.”

“No, no, no,” Xie Mingshen waved his hands, his expression seemed a little pity, “Are you really going to stop eating sweets now?”

“Yeah.” Lin Yuhe crossed their fingers, unconsciously pinched his palms, then said, “I don’t want to eat, I’m afraid of tooth decay.”

“Tooth decay?” Xie Mingshen asked, “Have you ever had a toothache? I looked at your medical records, and I don’t seem to have seen any information on dental visits.”

He then said, “I remember you ate a lot of sugar at that time, and everyone in the clinic was worried that it would be bad for your teeth. Yunyao also told you to be careful of tooth decay, but you proudly said no, you have good teeth and every day you brush teeth.”

Lin Yuhe fell silent.

“Did it hurt later?” Xie Mingshen asked, “Why are you worried about tooth decay now?”

“……No.”

Lin Yuhe’s voice was dry, and his forehead was throbbing, as if speaking would take a lot of energy.

“Mom… Before my mother left, she told me to be careful of tooth decay.”

The mother in the photo has a gentle face and gentle eyes. Lin Yuhe had not recalled such a mother for a long time, so he felt a little strange when he saw her today.

What he remembered more deeply was the mother who was lying on the hospital bed with a breathing tube inserted, so thin that even her knuckles were protruding. Although mother’s complexion was ashen, her eyes were still gentle, her cold and thin hand was holding his, her voice was intermittent, her body was so weak that she couldn’t even speak coherently.

“Take care of yourself, don’t be picky eaters, remember to brush your teeth after eating candy, be careful of tooth decay, and ask Dad if you have anything to do.”

“Mom needs to rest for a while, dear Ningning, Mom want you to grow up well…”

Lin Yuhe memorized every sentence carefully.

The growth of a happy child would wait until adulthood, until he met something that needs to be undertaken alone.

Others develop overnight.

Lin Yuhe grew up overnight on that long night, and the sun rose in the morning as usual, but her mother couldn’t wait for what the doctor referred to, ‘it should get better after this day’.

The last memory left for Lin Yuhe was that night, which made him miss her repeatedly in the days without his mother.

After that, it seems that there was no sweetness anymore.

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On the way home from the research institute, Lin Yuhe was a little more tired than before he came here.

He closed his eyes and leaned back on the back seat. The vehicle was running smoothly, but he was a little dizzy. His tense nerves were exhausted to the extreme, but he still couldn’t stop playing back the conversation just now over and over again.

In fact, Lin Yuhe could sensed some clues. He also studied psychology, so he could understand why Xie Mingshen was so persistent in questioning, and he insisted on breaking the casserole and asking the bottom line about such a trivial matter as eating sugar.

A psychiatrist cannot let go of any detail, and the most inconspicuous change may be the source of great trauma.

So Lin Yuhe still gave an answer.

Although this answer made him a little uncomfortable.

It’s getting more and more uncomfortable.

Lin Yuhe felt that he should be blamed for being too unprofessional. He had learned so many theories, and he had been exposed to treatment examples in his mother’s psychological clinic since he was a child.

He felt that he was a failure. He obviously liked psychology so much, but he couldn’t even convince himself.

The cold wind kept blowing, and the heater was turned on in the car, but it was not cold. But the warm wind made Lin Yuhe feel that his breathing was not smooth, and his head began to throb, like motion sickness, and he felt sick from his heart.

The strength in his body seemed to be drained, and he didn’t move for a long time.

Lin Yuhe’s sitting posture had always been very straight, even though it was very uncomfortable now, he was sitting upright without any crookedness.

Until there was a sudden gentle force from his side, he was pulled to the side and leaned into his broad and powerful chest.

The man gently took him into his arms.

Lu Nan’s work was very busy, even though he didn’t have to go to the company, he still had a lot to deal with. On the way to pick up and drop off Lin Yuhe, he had been processing documents.

Now he deliberately relaxed his movements, as if he thought that Lin Yuhe had fallen asleep and wanted to make people sleep more comfortably.

Lin Yuhe wanted to say that he was not asleep, but he was too tired to speak. The warm embrace was so comfortable that one would sleep in it with peace of mind and doesn’t want to leave.

The light scent of heavy wood also gradually overwhelmed the smell of the air conditioner in the car, making Lin Yuhe’s breathing a little easier.

He was buried in Lu Nan’s arms, calming down slowly without moving.

The man didn’t move, and he didn’t seem to even look at the documents.

The car was quiet for a long time.

Until someone suddenly spoke.

“Ning Ning.”

Lu Nan asked in a low voice.

“Do you miss your mother?”

It’s just a simple sentence, but it makes the eye sockets swell, the tip of the nose sore, and the defense line that had been built with difficulty was easily broken.

Lin Yuhe’s heart suddenly felt a pain, and the pain was so painful that he couldn’t help but began to shiver.

It hurts.

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